This poems just my mind spinning. When I read it for this first about eleven years ago, it did the same thing. This poem feels universal to me, if that’s possible.
What Comes Naturally? I’ve never found anything easy. Even doing nothing tears me up. And just getting drunk disgusts me, so I drink again to forget. But I love the way the cool moon twirls in the exotic blackness of space – O tiny happiness of stars, I want a woman to make love to, even an imaginary woman, from whom my mind doesn’t veer away. I feel like a vestigial piece of heart that’s broken off and goes wandering the streets without pleasure. In this town the women and cops all laugh, which is why I don’t breathe when I’m near them. That’s another way I’ve discovered to stop thought. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, why things aren’t easy. I wake up thinking this could be a great day and the other half of me thinks No, this is a great day. But the rest of me knows it won’t be easy.
Myers, Jack. “What Comes Naturally?” I’m Amazed that You’re Still Singing. Berkeley: L’Epervier Press, 1981. Print.
This poem comes from a terrific collection of poem, which I think you can order here: http://sagehillpoetry.com/lepervier-press/.